Selfish me.

It was all because I was selfish.
I as only thinking about myself. I'm so bad.

I was reminded by a friend
that I need to keep loving my family.
Looking at the back of mum mopping the floor,
why did I not help her?
My anger/tears yesterday and this morning....
Were they even right?
I was actually the one in wrong.
Not anyone else.

The dinner.
Why did it mattered so so much?
Why this particular one mattered so much?

"I don't know how to love"
that's alarmingly wrong and irresponsible.

Any dinner together is important. The time spent together.
Just now at dinner mum prepared for us,
have I for a moment sincerely appreciated
the dishes mum cooked?
I think i said I dun like fish...............

I should be encouraged that every moment spent with my family
be it a meal,
a joke,
the television programme
they are all impoartant.

I was selfish because I thought it was my bday,
they should celebrate it with me/ or even what's worse....FOR me.
they should spend time with me.
they should this and they should that....
and it's all me me me.
I'm wrong.
very wrong.

I need to step back and appreciate the love
ma, pa, jie, mino have shared all these while.

When I wished they love me,
Have I showed I love them?
When they show me acts of love,
Have I loved them more?
No I have not.

hurtful words that bruised ma's heart.
Not listening fully when Dad speaks (with the excuse I'm busy)
Being irritated by sister's "I want to use the computer for 5 min" when I'm using it. (it's only 5 min!)
Worse of all, judging elder sister's actions lately.

=(